My wish list for 2011

As I was reading my previous post and assessing how depressed I have felt the previous weeks I resolved to do something about it. I didn't believe all these people that told me that winters were hard to go through until now. What an awful season to be around. I don’t even understand how people function on this kind of weather. I admire my husband that wakes up around 5:00am to go to work every day. I have to be at my office at 9:00am and it takes me forever to start moving!

So I went out for lunch with my coworker Alanna and as I was telling my brother (through the msn chat) that I was back, he asked me to listen to an interview on the internet that a Mexican radio station was having. I listened to it. We talked about it. I don’t even know if I should comment about it here because people are going to say that I am crazy but I will just say that there was a medium involved in the interview. It was really good to hear what she said. I know, I know, a lot of people don’t believe that normal people have some senses more developed than others - I do.  The piece that woke me up from my depression was when she said that most of the families that she helps are the ones with parents that have lost a child. That confirmed that she was serious about her work. Anyway, the interview made me think about my loved ones that are not on this earth anymore. It reminded me that as a tribute to their lives and memory I need to live my life to the fullest. What if they are watching me or stop by once in a while to check on me? I would be ashamed to let them see how sad I have felt the last weeks. The lack of energy, the ambition that is nowhere to be found and then realized, well I have to take one step at a time.

My friend Sam has her resolutions (goals) on her blog, many people post them as a way to keep tabs on themselves. I don’t want to call them resolutions, I want to call them wishes, just because I wanted a different name. So here are some of my wishes for this year, I will tell you if I achieve one, two, none or all in my future postings:

 Yes, they are all over the place! I know I need to narrow them now and be more specific but better to have them like this than not to have them at all, right?

Have you accomplished your wishes/desires? How?

2011 – What to make of this brand new year?

As the first month of this 2011 passes by I realized I haven’t written anything on my blogs for some weeks now. I had a ton of ideas about topics, wanted to show off my Christmas decorations, talk about the great Christmas celebrations I was part of and more. But then something happened that changed all my priorities. We had a loss in our family. It happened all of the sudden on December 26^th.

It happened here in Massachusetts and as God always knows, we didn’t travel to Mexico this time. See, usually by the 26^th of December my husband and I are in Mexico City spending time with my family. This year we decided not to go since we had so many changes during 2010; the move, new job, new apartment etc. Of course that now I can tell you that we were here for a reason. A tragic one.

Since this loss affects so many people, I don’t want to go into details. It is not for me to tell this story. I just wanted to say, you will always be missed and remembered in my mind and my heart. Thank you for the smile and all the great little things you shared and did for me. Little things in life are what actually enrich a life. Thank you.

Because of the events that took place during the last two weeks I think I am going to need time to come up with words and topics. Or maybe I will be more prolific than before. I still don’t know. What I do know is that on New Year’s Eve, when the resolutions time came in, I just made one: To be happy, as happy as I can possibly be. I made this promise to my aunt that passed away some years ago, I promised her that I would live my life to the fullest and would live it based on the principles that she thought me. Now, I want to renew this promise. Remember that there is no better time to live your life than now.

See you soon.